My sister kissed my husband in front of thirty people at her own anniversary party and called it a joke. Her husband had a wrapped present in his hands and an envelope she had never opened.

To avoid four minutes of being embarrassed.

And the memory card, which I have never watched and which I want to explain, because people assume I have.

Tobin gave me a copy in the September of 2025. I did not ask for it. He said: “You should have it, because at some point somebody’s going to tell you I made it up.”

It has been in the drawer in this desk for fifteen months.

Ellis has not watched it either. That was not a rule we made; it is just a thing neither of us has done.

And in the October of 2025, at about one in the morning, in the nine months when he was living in the flat in Ferrinby and I was doing the school run on my own, I got it out and put it on the desk and sat there for about half an hour.

Because there was a version of me that wanted to be certain. Not about Romy and Gethin — about my husband. About whether the eleventh of April really was only the two of them in that footage, and whether the ninth of April in a car park in Calderwick was really the first he knew.

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