“She asked me not to.”
The betrayal was different this time, but it still hurt.
“How did you even know?”
Mark rubbed a hand over his face. “Because she called my wife after one of her appointments. She didn’t have anyone else nearby. Claire drove her home twice.”
I felt my stomach twist.
Claire.
Mark’s wife.
Someone outside our marriage had been helping Sophie while I slept in my apartment and told myself distance was healing.
“She didn’t want you to know,” Mark said. “Claire wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you. Sophie begged us not to.”
“And you listened?”
“She said you were barely holding yourself together after the divorce.”
I laughed once, bitterly. “That was generous of her.”
Mark’s voice turned firm. “Don’t make this about pride.”
I looked at him.
He was sitting there with stitches in his chest,and somehow he still managed to look at me like an older brother about to tell me the truth I had avoided.
“You left, Ethan,” he said. “I know you were hurting. I know you thought you were doing the right thing. But you left. Whatever Sophie did afterward, she did because she believed she couldn’t depend on you.”
I wanted to argue.
I wanted to defend myself.
But the words wouldn’t come.
Because deep down, I knew Mark was right.
He sighed. “That doesn’t mean you can’t show up now. But don’t show up expecting forgiveness just because you’re scared.”
I looked toward the window, at the city beyond the hospital glass.
“What am I supposed to do?”
“Start small,” he said. “And stay consistent.”
After leaving Mark’s room, I walked two blocks in the cold wind to find the tea shop. I bought peppermint tea, honey sticks, aplain notebook, and the softest pair of socks I could find in a little gift store next door.
It felt ridiculous.
A man trying to make up for abandonment with tea and socks.
But I didn’t know what else to do.
When I returned to Sophie’s floor, visiting hours were almost over. Dr. Keller stood outside her room, speaking quietly to another doctor. He noticed the paper bag in my hand.
