Please.*
The floor felt like it was moving.
“Who are they?” I whispered.
The doctor looked down at his shoes.
“He asked me not to say anything beyond giving you the envelope.”
“Who are they?” My voice came out louder than I meant it to.
He swallowed hard.
“There’s a letter.
He wanted you to read it first.
Before anyone explains anything.”
I looked back at the photo.
The little boy had Mark’s eyes.
The same shape.
The same color.
My hand moved to my stomach without thinking.
Our daughter kicked once, hard.
I unfolded the letter.
The first line stopped me completely.
*By the time you read this, you’ll have already given someone a part of me.
I need you to know there’s something else I left behind — something I should have told you long before now.*
Her full name was Diane Calloway.
She wasn’t hard to find.
A Facebook profile, mostly private.
A LinkedIn page that listed her as a dental hygienist at a practice twenty minutes from the hospital.
A neighborhood forum post from two years ago asking if anyone had recommendations for a reliable plumber.
An ordinary life.
A real person.
I sat in that small waiting room for another half hour, just looking at what little I could see of her profile.
One public photo: Diane at what looked like a birthday party, laughing at something off-camera.
She had dark hair and an open, unguarded smile.
In the background, slightly out of focus, a small boy in a paper crown.
I closed the app and put my phone away.
Outside, the afternoon had turned grey.
I drove home slowly, both hands on the wheel, and when I got inside I sat at the kitchen table without taking off my coat.
My mother-in-law called at six.
I let it ring.
She called again at six-fifteen.
I picked up.
“I heard you left the hospital,” she said.
“Are you all right?
Do you need me to come over?”
“I’m fine, Ruth.”
“You don’t sound fine.”
“I’m tired.”
A pause.
